It’s been a very busy week. The first week of the month always has so much going on. Work was good and I accomplished quite a bit.

I had my first appointment with my new therapist. I like her. I’ve changed therapists as the one I went to previously I haven’t seen in almost 4 years and I just feel I’ve moved past the issues I dealt with, with her. And having not seen her since I don’t have continuity with her. The first session with the new therapist was good. A bit of crying, lots of talking and some visualisation exercises for the dark hours of the morning. Interestingly I haven’t woken up in the dark hours since the appointment. I’m still waking up earlier than I’d like, but it’s still after 6am which is pretty good.

She told me to not be so hard on myself, so we are being strict on the diet Monday to Friday, and allowing some leeway on weekends. B and I had an awesome date night on Friday, which was good. I even had a glass of wine with dinner. I think we will stick to no alcohol at home for now, but I think she’s right and I do need to let my hair down a bit and remember what we were like before we were TTC. Well I need to think a bit further back, just before we were TTC we were planning a wedding, and I’d rather not go back there! She also agrees that waiting this cycle out is the best thing. Hopefully she can help me get my head in the right space, and it will be good to have a bit of history with her before we do find out I’m pregnant again. It will be good to have someone to voice my concerns to.

This weekend (according to my app) would have been the best time for us to try, so we had to come up with a lot of distractions as we try and avoid doing the baby dance. We went to a plant fair yesterday and had a picnic for lunch. Why is it always that when you are specifically avoiding the baby dance you find each other so darn appealing? It’s been a weird weekend for that. We are looking forward to Tuesday when we are out of the high possibility days.

I have another appointment with the therapist and chiropractor this week. I also have an appointment with an eye specialist! I’m a bit nervous about that. I’ve had a niggly issue that I went to the optometrist about this past week, and she’s referred me to a specialist to have my retina checked. Hopefully it’s nothing major.

I’m hoping for a calmer week this week and time to focus on making delicious healthy options for meals this week. I really have to remember to pack my lunch on days I’m in the office!